Consume me from the inside out

"Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades/Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame." These are the words to the chorus of one of my favorite songs by Hillsong United. Ever since my amazing chapel experience on Thursday, things have been hitting me like rocks to my chest. I wish with all of my heart that I could express God to you. I wish that there was one word that would sum Him all up. But frankly, it is impossible. I can name a dozen adjectives - mighty, awesome, indescribable, loving, majestic, kind, amazing - but not one of those seems to do Him justice. If only unbelievers could see Him. If only they would open their eyes and their hearts. It would blow them away. My heart absolutely breaks for them! I spent most of the 45 minutes of chapel on Thursday just crying my eyes out. Why can't they see? Why are we so incompetent to show them? We have the secret to the best life ever, and yet when it comes to giving them the Light of Jesus... we stumble, we stutter, we forget.
How can we forget Him? I am especially guilty of this. I cannot express to you how many times I have tried to share my faith. And every single time, Satan takes a hold of my words and shoves them right back into my mouth. In that regard, I feel like a failure. I see the hurt and pain of unbelievers every single day, yet for some reason, that must not strike me hard enough.
Now I understand that some people have hardened themselves so much to the idea of a God. I work with some people like that. Maybe it's because they have been personally hurt by a "follower" of Jesus. Maybe it's because they feel that God hasn't been there for them, so they are just going to convince themselves that He isn't true. To be honest, I don't know why some people don't believe. I mean, how more crystal clear can you get? When you think of the human body and all of its mechanics... it is astounding! We are the most technological advanced organisms that this planet... that this universe will ever know! Our heart and our brains have been studied continuously by the greatest minds in science, yet we will never know all that they both are capable of. God has created us each so unique and so precious. I just wish so badly that the world could see this!
What will it take? I don't know about you, but I am willing to do just about anything to see my friends saved. I would give my life to see them in Heaven someday. And I am extremely thankful that I have Christian friends. They are an abounding encouragement to me every day. On Thursday, I just cried out to God, "What will it take? God, I will do anything!" And you know what He has said to me? He has said, "Sarah... just tell them about Me!" When you think about it, it is so easy. He isn't asking us to amputate our left arm. He isn't asking us to gouge out our eyeballs. He isn't asking us to jump off the side of the Grand Canyon. For some of us, witnessing might as well be doing those things, but we need to remember that we serve an incredible, enormous and understanding God. He lived on this earth with us for 30+ years, and He knows our struggles. Paul puts it very simple in his letter to Timothy, he says, "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline." God has given us every resource that we need to accomplish the task He set before us. It's like sitting down to take a test and having the teacher give you all of the notes that you need to know and the knowledge already in your head to pass the test. God has given us His notes - the Bible - and He has given us this amazing brain to comprehend and remember an incredible amount of information. Plus, He has told us that He will never, ever, ever, ever leave us. So next time you go to witness to someone, just remember that God is standing right next to you, and He has His hands on you. He is whispering in your ear the words to say. In all honesty, how could it get easier?
Yes, people are going to turn you away, and yes, you can't save everyone. But God only instructs that you plant the seed. It is His job to make it grow. You may never see that person again on the face of this earth, but someday in Heaven, they will walk up to you and thank you with everything that they have because of what you said to them. It may not have sounded good to you, but it was enough.
I guess that's just my encouragement of the day. I actually need to read this over again because everything that I have written applies to me. I struggle so much with my witnessing, but I need to remember that God is in control. And nothing happens without His allowance.